They had me change in to a gown and I was really starting to feel nervous at that point. I wasn't going to have my husband stay in the room during the exam but when the doctors came in, they sort of went right in to it so he sort of sat back and had to listen to it all.
I thought it would be really quick but the doctor could not get these uncomfortable medal things in place. It was so painful. I tried my best to just relax and breath but it was unbearable. I started crying and she had the other doctor take over since she couldn't get it. Turns out my cervix is posterior (farther back then normal) so I had to bring my knees to my chest for him to get it in. After that, I couldn't even feel it. Sorry if this is TMI, but I am just trying to record all the memories.
I was planning on doing a home birth.. like, I was all for it. I was looking around for midwives and was 100% going to do a water birth at home. Water is my healing element. But after the pain I went through with just a pap smear, I know now that I don't have the pain tolerance for it. I really don't handle pain well so I have decided to just go with the traditional hospital delivery. It makes me sad to think about because I wanted a water birth so bad. I wish I was stronger.
After it was over, they did a few other things like feeling how big the uterus was and then we finally got to the ultrasound. My husband came to my side and tried to comfort me the best he could but I was still a bit in shock to how painful it really was. But when she flicked on the ultrasound and we got to see our bouncing little baby, everything else didn't matter. He or she was using its legs to jump off the uterus wall again and again. He/she looked happy and comfortable in there. He/she would turn like they were turning in bed to get comfortable. It was so cute. I just love this little baby so much. The baby has brought our little family so much joy. My Mom is so excited that she has the ultrasound picture as her phone's screen photo. Steve's family is really excited too. This is Steve's mom first grand baby and she loves getting all the new updates. Its awesome having people as excited as you.
We are so blessed to have such a supporting family.
|Our sweet little baby|